I'm off for two days..which is awesome. Yesterday wasn't horrible like I thought it was going to be. I had infeild with two other people..so clearly it got done, and there wasn't much bitchy customers. This one women pretended that she was ill on the phone, though, when I told her that I would already hold the jewelry.

After work I went home and played WoW while talking to Mike which is always extremely awesome.

I've been happy through the summer which is odd; however, I feel like I'm beginning to get depressed again. One clear reason is that I miss hanging out with Mike which is something that I won't go much on about, because of the fact that I usually talk about it all the time on myspace and facebook.

But anyway, other reasons are losing a friend and work. I feel like I have become stronger with dealing through losing a friend. I am not going to blame myself for things that were out of my control anymore, and I will not try and rekindle the relationship. I've realized that mistakes happen, and if a friend is going to not give me a second chance..then I am just going to move on. I have wonderful friends anyway who make me feel like I'm a wonderful person. The hard part is that I hate giving up on people..I feel that everyone has a good side and as well as a different way of looking at things..Sometimes people act in a hurtful manner because of reasons such as, one, they were taught that way by their parents, peers, or their own inner dialoge, or, two, tbey had no experience with the situation at hand..so they might deal with it in a bad manner. The point is..is that I hate giving up on people..I like making sure everyone is happy with me and themselves...I've realized though, as I said, that is not possible. The hard part is trying to get over the fact that the friendship is over.

Another reason that I've been beginning to feel down is work..It is too stressful, and I am not sure if I can handle it anymore. I really don't feel like working at Target too, because it is so boring. I really wanted to have the summer to be more TJ Maxx,s o I can have random days off..I am weird like that. Also Sundays suck at Target, because TJ Maxx closes at 6. The good thing though about the store is that Brandi will be working with me.

There are so many other reasons though.

The summer hasn't been that bad..I really think June is going..slow.

What have I been doing today? Umm..I just went over my Dad's and swam in his pool with Brandi. I need a new bathing suit, because my boobs do not fit the old ones tht I have..especially the one that I wore today..I will one day get the money..A new bathing suit isn't really important...Which is important is trying to work out plans to see Mike this summer..that is very important to me. A new bathing suit can wait..after I, hopefully, get a ticket to see him.

Anyway, afterwards, I went back to my house and played WoW..Mike ran me through Sunken temple for my warlock quest..then I went on a Maradon run with my friends in my guild..which leveled me to 53..I know everyone seems to care.

I have work tomorrow from 5-10..I should sleep..but I want to aviod it..I don't want to think about everything that is bothering me.

May 11th was my last day as a n00b at college. The day before I spent the night packing which was exciting!!!! WHOO!! Mike came and helped me pack after my last "final" though on Friday the 11th. i put "final" in quotes, because it was really a quick English presentation on my professor's book "Love, Cajun Style" which actually is a great book so you may have to read. Seriously..it has to be good if I am suggesting a romantic book, all right!?

Anyway, Mike helped me pack by hiding in my trunk and being a sexy n00b. I locked  myself out of the dorm, and I fully blame it on the root bear that I am drinking in front of me. ALSO, I must remember that right after I got up and walked out the door to my ENG final, it started to rain. Cara, this is an important moment in your life!!

So, anyway, Mike was awesome and left with me for NJ on May 13th..which was Mother's day..and I felt horrible about. The 12th...we did nothing, but it kicked ass because I was with my sexy boyfriend. I pretty much hung out with him from the 11th-the 18th.

The week with him was amazing which is understandable, right!? We saw SpiderMan 3 with Daniel and Brandi and that was cool. Oh, oh, oh and we got to sleep in the same bed and shit, because Greg was gone.

I really miss him now though, and I am also not really looking foreward to this summer without him around. I'm hoping to get Comcast soon; however, so I can play WoW with him....still I would rather play WoW and see him.

I am really excited about the time I get to have now to hang out with Brandi, Daniel, and other cool friends such as Sarah who usually reads this and needs to contact me so we can hang out, yeah, run-ons! I'm trying to look at the good side on me and Mike only having to go through the distance for 3 months which is NOTHING compared to the time we used to have to go through.

Anyway, I should try and sleep. I was talking to Mike on IM when I planned to go off awhile ago..but yeah...He was EXTREMELY awesome soooooooo I had to stay.

Ok, I'll shut up and sleep

-ZelinePrincess

I am not in the mood to do anymore schoolwork. At least, I'm not depressed anymore...Brandi helped A LOT with cheering me up..but just listening to me. Having a friend like her is a reason to remember that not all people are bad...there are some amazing people out there.

Today, I have my Human Growth and Development take-home final to do..I am not in the mood to do it, as I mentioned..I feel so burnt out from all the papers that I already had to do..I seriously am just giving up on HGD, because I know that no matter how hard I try..I will get a B. If I am really lucky, I will get a B+. One time I got an A..and that was truely a miricle. I have to do my Philosophy paper tomorrow too..which will be complete shit, because it has a page limit...which I could never really meet without getting a bull and making it shit on my paper. 

World of Warcraft's servers are down...which is normal for a Tuesday morning. I should go back to sleep, so I have more energy for my exciting paper, but I'm not in the mood anymore.

I need to go shower.